One Month

One month from right now I'll be leaving Mobilise to head to the airport to go on my adventure. Besides packing, most everything is (FINALLY) done. I've gotten my shots, ISIC card, plane ticket, met with other students who are going. I'm putting the last few things for my visa paperwork together, and will mail that off in the morning. That's been the bane of my existence these last few weeks, I'm so ready to be done with Visa stuff, bleck.

As odd as it seems, its only starting to just sink in that I go in 31 days.I know saying goodbye to everyone here is going to be really hard, and I wish I could fast forward to just being there and not having to do that. It's always in the back of mind everyday, yet I still feel like I have so much going on right here and now and people that I want to spend time with and things to be involved in at Jubilee that I don't feel like I'm leaving soon. But I am, and it's starting to loom...I'll be extremely excited one day and then the next day overwhelmed and a little scared. For someone who's usually pretty even from one day to the next, it's hard for me not to get annoyed by these ups and downs. When I'm up, I've just enjoyed feeling excited, and when I'm apprehensive, I just try to remind myself of the evidence of God leading me into this. He's been so faithful to open up this opportunity for me, and I have a hard time not feeling guilty that I'm not more excited 24-7! I would really appreciate prayer for that, that God would prepare my heart to go and show me the right attitudes and mindsets to have.

Wow, this post is more of a downer than I anticipated. I just think I should end by clarifying that I AM pumped about this and excited to see what God is going to do and in no way second guessing this! There's just other emotions that are surfacing as well. But I have 31 days here to enjoy before I go have an incredible adventure, so enjoy them I will!